bad day today.

tired. really tired. not physically but emotionally. had the urge to really back out and let someone take over me. with so many things to do, with so many things that i would be directly/indirectly in-charge and being unable to satisfy both sides, i feel like breaking down. charis somehow cheered me up a little but i doubt she knows that. dang. never felt this way before and i certainly hate this feeling.

after training today, received a superr duperr uberr bad news. worried sick for that person and for everyone that may be involved. eyes got teary, hands were shaking, heart was beating vigorously. i hope for everyone to be alright. called certain people to ask if they are alright. and i was really really relieved that they are okay. too happy for words that my tears just rolled down. back home, was still very worried for that person. finally received a msg from someone telling me that he's alright.

i thank god for today. thank you for making sure that everyone near me is safe and sound. really, thank you.