Monday, May 31, 2010
// 11:53 PM
People change overtime.
In terms of their looks,
In terms of their personality,
In terms of their maturity,
In terms of their mentality,
In terms of their perspective,
In terms of their behaviour.
We just can't help but change, huh?
iloveyou❤
Life after graduating;; // 11:45 PM
Got back my first ever progress report in JJC. Well, I guess it is quite alright. AABBCC. Quite an acceptable result, I guess. Mummy and Daddy didn't comment much but I know they hoped that I'd flare better. Well, I guess I just have to buck up during the June holidays!
Btw, Janise! Cheer up alright! Not sure if you'd read this, though. But anw, it's not the end of the world! You can still buck up and catch up!:D Jiayousss~
Msg-ed Aaron today during the bus ride home. Lots of thoughts came flooding in. Like again. Haii. I really miss 4F a lot. It gives me a feeling of home, where I'm able to hang out with all my awesome friends and have fun together despite the cliques. I just don't see that in my class now :/
Aaron mentioned that it is sad that some people can actually let go of the past and move on while we're stranding at this point refusing to let go. I guess every individual just have their own things that they can't let go, huh?
We used to joke around together, we used to have fun together, we used to study together, we used to create memories together. But just look at how it all became past tense. We just can't turn back time, huh? I really wished I treasured being a part of 4F in the past rather than regretting it now.
Everything just seems to change after we graduate. Its not only one thing; but everything. It just comes one after another. It's really amazing how one can change so much as time passes.
iloveyou❤
Sunday, May 16, 2010
// 2:59 AM
Maybe, just maybe; I haven't showed my best yet.
iloveyou❤
Identity // 2:20 AM
In front of my parents; I have to be an obedient child.In front of my relatives; I have to be someone smart.
In front of my friends; I have to be someone strong and cheerful.
In front of my teachers; I have to be a student that studies hard.
But, in front of you; I just have to be me.
iloveyou❤
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Disappointment; in myself. // 8:19 PM
This week is crappy to the max.
Screwed up Chemistry Practical Written Assignment and Math Lecture Test 2.
Failed Math Lecture Test 2; 11/25. I'm really disappointed in myself. Though I've been flaring well as compared to many other people as I've only failed 1 Math Quiz and 1 Math Lecture Test so far, I just can't help but feel disappointed. In myself.
You may say I have too high expectations of myself. But c'mon, who doesn't? I believe that I should be able to get better grades than those shitty results that I'm getting right now. I should be more resolute and unswerving in attaining much better grades.
Common tests are coming; it's really mugging time now.
iloveyou❤
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Demoralised // 11:45 PM
I really studied.
Tried my utmost best in trying to understand the lecture notes.
Went through tutorials and extra supplementary excercises in an attempt to grasp the concept better.
But I still don't get a single shit.
It's really damn demoralising when you're putting in so much effort in trying to learn something but you just can't. Helpless.
And this is like considered one of the easier chapters in Math. Gosh. I really wonder how I'm gonna handle promos.
Fuck, I really shouldn't have entered JC.
` cause whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
Just how true is this quote. You might not even survive the torture.
iloveyou❤
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Treasure // 10:18 PM
Dinner with Aaron and Xinyi yesterday was awesome!:D Had a great time chatting with them and it really feels great after pouring out all the feelings to them(: Dinner at Mos Burger^^ And headed to StarBucks to chat after dinner. Left Jurong Point at around 10pm(:
Should have treasured the time spent together in the past even more; now that I know there's no turning back in life. Time won't go back,nor would it stop. I really miss those times. A lot. A lot.
' The saddest thing is that you can't do anything about it;;
iloveyou❤
Thursday, May 6, 2010
// 10:10 PM
I never used to have such problems. And I'm really fighting hard to keep myself going.
Stay strong, Cindy. You'll pull through this. You pulled through the hardest time in life. I know you can do it.
iloveyou❤
Mentally tired // 10:06 PM
I'm tired of pleasing everyone, but myself.
Effing life I'm living.
iloveyou❤
Monday, May 3, 2010
Nostalgic // 8:27 PM
Damn long since I've last updated, yeah? Perhaps it's cause JC life is really really hectic. And I'm not kidding.
I'm practically having the same routine everyday: Wake up early in the morning, go to school to study, come back home real late, study and complete homework, and then go to sleep. And the routine just goes on and on.
Tiring routine and I just feel like giving up at times. Not only in terms of studies, but also in terms of interpersonal relationships. I mean, I'm already tired enough from all the school work and stress but other things in life are not making it better.
I've once really regretted my decision in coming to a JC. And I still do now. Apart from the work stress, the time that I lack to meet up with friends are causing me to feel really depressed too. They say Secondary School friends are friends that are the most unforgettable. And I'm really feeling it now.
Luckily, I still have Aaron and Xinyi(: They are really my pillar of support in life, giving me the strength to pull through the hardest time in school when I don't have anyone that I can share my feelings to. It's really amazing how I could actually meet them and how we managed to be such great friends. I can't say the same for them, but I'm really thankful for having them as my best friends^^
Thank you for being the awesome-est friends that I could every ask for, being there for me no matter what happened; even if we're in different schools. Really, I appreciate all that you guys have done for me(:
Luckily, I still get to meet you guys for dinner and KBOX!^^ I mean, I doubt others are meeting up as often as us. So I'm really thankful for that(: We shall make it a point to meet up every week!^^
Thank you guys, for making a BIG difference in my life. I love you guys!❤
P.S. Aaron, thank you so much! I know I've thanked you a million and one times alr.
But still, thank you! After talking to you, a lot of feelings just came flooding.
It's amazing how you could always manage to cheer me up no matter how down I am.
Even though they are just simple words of regards and encouragement;
they just never fail to make me regain the strength to keep on fighting.
Thank you so much(: It's a pity we're not in the same school. Really):
But luckily, we can still meet up and we still chat on MSN and msg each other(:
I'm really thankful to have you as such a great friend^^
iloveyou❤
