Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Chemistry Paper // 8:22 PM
Today's Chemistry paper was... half GG-fied. Paper 2 was pretty much manageable; whilst Paper 1 was totally a killer. 10 minutes left and I have yet to complete the paper and shaded the OTAS. Managed to fill in all the answers somehow, though. I swear the papers today totally killed all my brain cells.
After the papers went Jurong Point for lunch with Janise, Audrey, Yuan Ning, Jasmine and Aijia!^^ Lunch-ed at Pepper Lunch (with much difficulty cause Jas was totally making me laugh through the meal), then caught Devil!(: It's a pity Yuan Ning couldn't join us!):
Devil is a pretty awesome movie(: Perhaps it's also due to the fact that I haven't caught a movie in I-don't-know-how-many-gazillion-years, but I guess the movie is still worth the catch^^ The twist is awesome! Though I felt really tired after the movie cause I was quite scared xD Jasmine was teasing me for covering my face with my bag throughout the movie! LOL.
Well, with the last paper for this week down, I feel pretty much relieved. It's as though promos are over; when I jolly well know that it's just the start of a torturous weekend ahead): But well, I'll persevere, I'll push through, I'll endure.
Just.. 5 more days to go!(:
And oh, I'm soooooo gonna slack my ass off today before I start mugging for Biology for the next 4 days. Hah. And did I mention? Today's movie totally made me crave for a movie marathon!
iloveyou❤
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Geography Paper // 6:49 PM
Gosh. Just woke up from a 4 hour nap. Overslept by like 2 hours. Dangggg. I think it's gonna be another sleepless night again. Gonna start mugging for Chemistry soon!
Today's Geography paper was pretty much alright. Essay was managable; but I totally died at the DRQs. But oh well.. Hopefully tomorrow's Chemistry paper would be alright!
On a side note, I'm really glad that tomorrow's the last paper for this week! After tomorrow's paper, I'd only one more paper to go before the end of promos!^^
What a joke. So that's how much things have changed. Taken aback; accepted reality; placed them behind. I've learnt to accept things as it is; and not dwell on it anymore.
iloveyou❤
// 1:18 AM
I miraculously managed to mug finished the last 2 sets of Geography notes and read through the other 2 not so important notes. Well, just hopefully, I'll still be able to remember all the details when I wake up tommorow.
Daddy's heading to Vietnam tomorrow; so I gotta head to school by public transport. Quite a relief, actually. Cause I'd have to wake up earlier and can study on the bus tomorrow.
Alright, enough of craps. Time to sleep! Waking up in 4.5hours. Please wish me all the luck that you can!! Seriously in need of it):
iloveyou❤
Monday, September 27, 2010
// 11:41 PM
I think I'm really dead for Geography. Started studying too late :/
iloveyou❤
// 9:03 PM
Awesome shit. I don't have the mood to study for Geog. Half an hour passed and I'm still at page 4 of the first stack of notes. Awesome, no?Dang. Switched off my computer to minimise distractions. Gonna lock myself in my room and spam music and spam green tea and seriously mug for Geog paper alr. Surprisingly, I ain't feeling the need to mug for tomorrow's paper. Perhaps it's because I know perfectly well that it's a meant-to-be-screwed paper? Maybe, maybe. Alright, off to mug.
I like to use twitterific now(: likethesound^^
iloveyou❤
Math Paper // 7:20 PM
God.
Entered school today with an uneasy heart. Firstly, I'm afraid of taking the Math paper. Secondly, it's a 3 hour long paper and I'm not sure if I can complete the paper. Thirdly, I miraculously decided to tie my hair to school today :O Pre-examination madness? Perhaps. But I'm glad I received positive feedbacks. Hahah! xD Su kept saying that I look cute :/ When I obviously ain't. Lol. Anyway, the time to enter the exam hall came, and.....
The paper was... A killer. Putting aside the fact that I managed to complete the whole paper somehow (I seriously have got no idea how I managed to finish the paper), I'm not confident in clinching that A that I'm aiming for. Paper was pretty much tricky and requires much thought process.
But well, it's over and I gotta put it behind~ After the Math paper went Mac and had lunch with JJJACY clique(: Then bus-ed to Clementi with Janise and Audrey to get KOI! *hearts*
Cabbed back home cause I was feeling really tired and it was raining too. Came home and had a nap. Planned to wake up at 6pm, but I ended up sleeping till 7pm. Like gosh. And what's worse is that tomorrow's paper is Geography, which needs lots of memorising):
And I didn't sleep well at all!! Dreamt that I was stuck in a Math question and I was soooo nervous and scared cause I couldn't solve it. Woke up from my nap cause the time was up. And I was tearing when I woke up -.- Damn. What a nightmare.
Gahhhhhhhh~ Gotta start studying for Geography already):
iloveyou❤
// 12:23 AM
Dammit. I can't get to sleep):
iloveyou❤
Sunday, September 26, 2010
// 10:22 PM
I'm gonna turn in by 11pm tonight. Need to be in a tip-top condition to fight this war.
iloveyou❤
Promos // 10:13 PM
Awesome.
A 3 hour Math Paper is awaiting for me in like... 8 hours? Gosh. And here I am, munching on spicy tapioca. Calming the nerves, maybe? And I'm spamming green tea cause it's spicy. Gahhhhhhh. Hope I don't have a stomach upset tomorrow.
Please wish me lots of luck for tomorrow's paper! I'm seriously in need of it):
iloveyou❤
// 4:03 AM
Time check: 4.04am
I'm glad my study mood came back in the end. Downloaded all the Math Mock Papers answers just now and attempted Mock Paper 3. Completed till question 10, but I'm too hungry to carry on doing. Lol. Stomach was growling and it's an awful feeling. Mummy woke up TWICE and kinda scolded me for staying up so late. So I'm gonna turn in soon(: Hopefully I can wake up earlier tomorrow and my study mood doesn't leave me(:
And oh, I forgot to mention, the run just now made both my legs ache like mad):
iloveyou❤
Saturday, September 25, 2010
A New Cindy // 9:20 PM
Spent time to clear and tidy up my study table and had everything ready to start my mugging time. Music, specs
(to make myself feel nerdy), sweets, and drinks. I even went to the extent of switching off my laptop and kept my handphone away from me. Wanted to keep off all distractions; and start studying seriously. But study mood still didn't come back to me in the end): So decided to go for a run before coming back home and attempt mugging again.
Just came back from a 7 rounds run near my house. Finished it in like 16 minutes!(: Pretty much an accomplishment to me, considering the fact that I haven't been running long distance for a long time already. Had a refreshing bath; and now I'm ready to start mugging for my promos(:
The run just now was awesome. Guess it ain't too bad to be alone at night at times(: Felt the cold wind blowing on my face, felt my heart thumping, felt very lethargic, felt myself being me again. Come to think about it, I haven't had much time for myself since I've been drown by school work and whatnots since the start of the year.
Spent a lot of time thinking just now. Realised that I like to write philosophical compos, cause I think I sound very profound. Lol! But then, reality kicked in and I realised that I haven't been practicing what I preach.
In my compos, I keep telling people that there's bound to be ups and downs in life. It's inevitable, it's a learning process. As long as we brace ourselves, grit our teeth and stay strong; we will pull through, we won't get down. This is what life is about.
However, just how much am I following what I say? At some point in life, I realised that I, too, am a weakling. I gave up too easily, and when things get tough, I don't have the strength to keep going anymore. This is even more so when I enter JC. Looking at how my other friends are enjoying their poly life, new circle of friends; I find myself pitying my own life. I find myself regretting my decision in coming to a JC, blaming myself for letting others waver my decision and changed it in the end. I find myself getting upset over the tiniest little thing such as being unable to meet up with my loves, when I know that they would always be there and we can always arrange a time again. I find myself hating the current life I'm living so so so so sooooooo much, I find myself feeling stressed up ever so easily. This is how much I've changed.
Today, after the run, it then dawned on me that this is the path that I've chosen; and there's no way I can turn back time. I should start practicing what I preach and no matter what happens, to face each and every problem with open arms and an opened heart. Cause I know for sure, that I have a bunch of awesome friends and a warm family that would be behind me always, supporting me, giving me strength, helping me up when I fall, and letting me lean on when I get tired.
I'll stay strong, I'll face all problems that comes to me with courage, I'll learn from past mistakes, and I'll be a changed person.
They say happiness is a choice, we can choose to be sad, but we can choose to be happy too. Well, I guess I prefer the latter option. I'll learn to be the happy me again(:
So well, I guess it's time to really start mugging for my promos! It's just 9 days more! Hang in there, Cindy! As the saying goes: "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going", all these would be over in a blink of an eye.
Stay strong, push yourself through the last lap, and end the race with a smile(:
iloveyou❤
The last sprint // 6:23 PM
Goodness, I really didn't accomplish anything for the whole day today. Wanted to wake up at 7am to do work and even got Aaron to give me a morning call. But plan failed cause he read my msg too late and didn't wake up so early also. Hahah, thanks anw^^
Woke up at around 11am and started slacking. Helped out mummy a lot cause she wasn't feeling well still. It has been 6.5hours since I'm awake and I haven't even got out my Math stuffs. Sigh. This really isn't right.
Gonna go for a run later at 8pm; and then seriously sit down and chiong Math. Though the thought of doing Math but not getting the questions right is seriously demoralising and killing my study mood. In the mean time, I shall TRY to start getting to work.
Hang in there; Cindy. Come to think about it, it's just like another.. 9 more days till the official end of promos. I know you can do it(:
Grit your teeth, clench your fist, and sprint towards the goal ahead.
iloveyou❤
I hate promos. // 3:10 AM
It's like 3.10am now and I'm still awake.
Lost motivation to study, so used desperate means to force myself to study. Wore specs and felt really nerd and the feeling came back. Attempted some Math questions but my brain really isn't functioning well now. What's worse is that I can't access into Litespeed, which made my study mood go away -.- Well, shall turn in now and then wake up earlier to attempt more questions. Please, please, please, please. Let me have my study mood back tomorrow. I promise to be a good girl.
iloveyou❤
Friday, September 24, 2010
// 11:49 PM
Hello again!
Today was... like a roller coaster? GP papers.. I totally screwed it up. I seriously think I'm gonna flunk the papers. No joke. Chinese papers; it's pretty much alright I guess. Just that the duration of the papers nearly killed me.
After Chinese papers went Clementi MOS Burger for early dinner with Janise, Audrey and my daughter Nicole!:D Went to get KOI then I headed home first.
Crappy morning, Moderate afternoon, Awesome night.
Wow. Today was... great.
Alright~ I need to find back my motivation and start mugging for promos already. It's really a bad timing to lose all faith and determination.
iloveyou❤
Thursday, September 23, 2010
// 11:40 PM
Hi, I've got no idea why I'm here at this hour. Promos is in 8.5 hours, and I ought to be sleeping. But I guess the jitters ain't leaving me and I can't get to sleep. GP and Chinese papers tomorrow; I'm glad they aren't memory-based subjects. Well, not quite.
GP.. I've kinda given up hopes for it. I'll be entering the exam hall with just 3 mantra from Ms Yap; Logic, Balance, and CLSPERMS. That's all I'm betting on for tomorrow. Hopefully the essay questions and passage ain't too hard to interpret and answer!
Chinese.. It's a freaking 3hours and 15minutes paper. I'll be thankful if I don't fall asleep midway through the paper. Honestly, I really don't know how on earth I'm supposed to study for these papers. Merely looked through past papers and worksheets; which means, I'm so dead.
Well, thankfully the first paper is on a Friday, which means I have the whole weekend to mug for the papers next week. If I don't slack off, that is. Gosh, I'm really losing my motivation at the wrong time.
It's the freaking promos, I know I have to study hard, I know I have to get promoted. But I'm just lacking the mood and determination to pull through this.. 10 days. What's more is that the all girls and all boys camp is awaiting for me STRAIGHT after my last paper. Awesome, ain't it.
Alright, enough of ranting, it's really time for me to turn in. It's been so long since I last turned in this early. Promos is in 8.5hours time; I just wanna get it over and done with.
Hesitated for so long; and I still couldn't pluck up the courage to comment. I know you're over. I know I got over you. But still, the fear of talking to you still persist.
iloveyou❤
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Madness // 2:14 AM
Madness.
Thought I was done with PW. But ended up, I had to do more stuffs. Spent another 3 hours or so on PW and just completed it. Still left with bits and pieces. Argh, dammit.
When you feel like giving up, think of what made you held on. But sometimes, people change, things differ, so we shouldn't hold for the sake of holding on.
iloveyou❤
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Time Shortage // 10:12 PM
Okay.. I somehow managed to survive another 5.5 hours of PW. Seems to me that PW took up half of my lifetime -.-
Ms Xu told me that our group should be alright yesterday. But then, she sent me back our written report at like 3.22am in the morning and in the report, we had to change so many things!
But well, I'm taking it easy cause I know she'd somehow change our ideas or whatnot and we have to do a whole lot of things again. So.. well well, I'm good. For now.
Edited pretty much of our written report and I just have to wait for the rest to do their parts and compile them together. PW is seriously screwing up my study plans. Study plans lagged like shitzxz cause I was way too tired yesterday and had to rush out PW today. I guess it'd be another night without sleep!):
But oh well, I'm still happy today. Cause daddy changed my handphone plan to UNLIMITED MSGES!!:D Like woots, one more wish under my wish list down :D Teehee!!
Well, time to take a rest and study.
I'll be fine. I won't fall. I'll stay strong.
iloveyou❤
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
// 8:10 PM
Got back Formative Assessment today. Failed it.
Was very disappointed, and I still am. I really did give off my best shot, I really put in effort in doing the assignment. But all that I've got was a fail grade. Awesome.
PW time~
iloveyou❤
Sunday, September 12, 2010
// 4:23 AM
Time check: 4.23am
I'm almost done with Math Paper 2! Left 4 more questions and I'm done(: Mummy woke up just now at around 3am and asked me to sleep when jie came back home. But I risked getting caught again and continued staying up after she returned to her bedroom xD
Managed to do work till now; which is like 1.5 hours more. I'm quite tired already. Been staying up these few days and having only about 5 hours of sleep per day. So I'm gonna sleep now and continue the work tomorrow! Since I'm still on task(:
Well, it's Sunday already and I'm experiencing Monday blues. School tomorrow! I'm really dreading school): But oh well, it's the last sprint before promotional examinations already. So let's all work hard together okay?^^
Nights, earthlings~
And oh, I think I'd miss staying up late and studying after school reopens):
And oh, I forgot to mention; I like to read my old posts(:
iloveyou❤
Slack day): // 1:20 AM
Hello!
So.. I basically wasted my whole morning and afternoon today. Woke up at 11.30am despite sleeping at 4.30am and the first thing I hear was mummy talking to jie about her Bangkok trip. Lol. Lazed around on my bed and got up officially at 12pm.
Told myself to start work at 1pm after watching some clips on Youtube. But then.. It dragged till 2pm, 3pm, 4pm.. all the way till 7pm. Awesome, no? I should have known better than to start on a new drama. Told myself to stop at episode 1, but I ended up watching all the way till episode 4 (that's because episode 5 subbed is not out yet :x).
Tsktsk. But seriously, the show is nice. LOL! Hyun Jong in Playful Kiss is awesomely cute and handsome and funny! And the female lead too!^^ Wonder why was their first episode rating so low): But still.. I like the couple(:
Ahhhh.. Okay. Enough of spazzing over Korean idols(: So anw, I officially started work at 8.30pm after bathing. Managed to have self control and finished up all the Geography chapters left within 4 hours!^^ WOOHOO~~
Wanted to download songs then start on Math Mock Paper 2 but then stupid 4shared website is not allowing me to T.T tsktsk. Fate ah? Want me to finish my work first then download the songs tomorrow. Is this what Ms Chia call "Delayed Gratification"?
Anw~~
TIME CHECK: 1.45am
I shall finish my Math Mock Paper 2 and then go sleep(:
iloveyou❤
Saturday, September 11, 2010
// 3:44 AM
Time check: 3.45am
Wow. I'm still awake. Can you believe it?
Just completed the last section of Chemistry Paper 2 and about 8 questions of those super-duper-uber-long Math questions with so many gazillion parts.
Had enough of Math, gonna start on Geography now. Today's aim is to not let daddy or mummy catch me still awake at this hour! If not I'd be so dead. But... From 12am to 6am (the furtherest I've went) is my optimum time for productive study. SO.. Please don't let them catch me awake. Pretty please!
iloveyou❤
// 12:33 AM
Not the time, girl. Not the time.
Get your hands on your papers, you idiot.
iloveyou❤
Promos! // 12:14 AM
My poor blog is
awesomely lonely!!):
Haven't had the time to update my blog. Promos is in 13 days!! Like wah. Damn fast, eh?
This holiday haven't been a holiday for me! Had to go back to school for remedial lessons, PW consultation, do up PW, revise for promos, AND doing all the papers given to us. School is awesomely mad by giving us tons of papers to do like we've got unlimited time to complete it during the holidays.
It's 12.23am now. And I'm still trying to complete the papers. Slept at 6am and woke up at 11.30am this morning so I'm freaking tired now. Dang. I need to find back the burst of study mood like yesterday.
Face the reality, girl. It's not going to be the same anymore. Never.
iloveyou❤
